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Yes, I can :) Things aren't really that bottom-of-the-pit-bad here, although I can see why it might look that way. My last two posts should really be taken with a pinch of salt & a wink.

I'm quite stressed with the house-moving-business - in my head, since we're not actually going anywhere for another two months - and find myself sort of at a loss. Sort of lost. Not gone yet but not quite here nor there either. Something like that. And apparently that leaves me with the mental flexibility of seaweed. About pretty much everything. I can't really see the light and the happy. Not all the time, anyway. But I still have my sense of humour, such as it is, and I can still smile!

Sorry Annemarie, out of cookies - you got the last bag ;) But I did make sense of your word-mush, and this works too, right?

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Edit: That little spade is 'mine' because I'm well aware I'm the one who's throwing spanners in my own 'je ne sais quoi' here. That's how I cope - ha ;) I'm really good at rewriting world history & my own when I'm under pressure. And at seeing imaginary bears in the road and in surrounding suburban gardens. I excell at battering my sanity when I stress! But I know the colours are still there - if only I'd look up, and I feel well-armed with that knowledge. I'll be okay :)

announcement

inflamed brain not matching pretty soul

restoring

Magical wildflowers...

... a deer patiently posing...

... & a bit of babywearing :-)

I had to get out of the house this weekend. Needed to clear my head, breathe some fresh air & reclaim myself a little bit. & I really needed to hold on to my baby boy. But he's a toddler: busy-busy-busy exploring the world and all the cars in it. He wasn't much up for hugging his mamma as much as she wanted him to ;-)
Stroke of genius though, even if I do say so myself: a walk out in nature with Squirt in his own personal 'backpack' as soon as he got a little tired! He loved it, and so did I :-D
I won't go as far as to say "all's right with the world again", but I definitely feel better and ready for another week.

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* & that's not a bad thing, necessarily. Through changes we grow. I call it gathering Wisdom.

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and I’m a little bit lost without you
and I’m a bloody big mess inside
and I’m a little bit lost without you
this ain’t a love song this is goodbye*

*This Ain't a Love Song by Scouting for Girls. Not entirely appropriate but I can't get this bit out of my head. & I can't stop crying. Yet...

Serving a spoonful of very personal here. It's all I have right now.

summer

faceless

I'm a bit scared to draw in the face... But apart from that, pretty pleased about how this came out! And it actually happened, wet bum & all ;)

(click on image to see it larger)

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Yesterday, I made a parenting mistake so basic, I don't think it's even covered in Parenting 101...
I took Squirt into a. Toy. Store. Because I wanted to look at a DVD. For him of course. See, my intentions were good. They usually are ;)
But then I expected we could just walk out - without the DVD because it was rediculously over-priced - and be on our merry way. Without investigating all the cars in the shop. Or buying one or more. Without mini-tantrums & dramatics.
Silly beginner, me.

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